I've been thinking a lot about time lately. I have felt so rushed for some time now and am realizing that you can slow down time.....stay with me.
Have you ever noticed when your child is falling and about to get hurt your mind seems to slow down, you can't move fast enough and in an instant you process what is about to happen. Time seems to slow down, and our ability to process the situation speeds up. At the same time...weird.
My Tyler is amazing. He struggles with anxiety (at 7) and it's hard for me to watch him being so worried all the time. However, I have noticed an incredible ability/gift that he possesses. He loves sports and being an active kid. When he is in a sport situation he has an ability to slow the game down in his mind and observe everything around him. He is very observant. (when it suits him) It reminds me of the scripture in Mormon 1:2 where Ammaron is talking to Mormon when he is ten. He says, "I perceive that thou art a sober child, and art quick to observe". What an amazing gift of the Spirit, being quick to observe. It takes a disciplined eye and mind to slow down the situation so you are able to see everything around you in great detail. Which seems to me to be the opposite of anxiety. So, as a mom, I am trying to find ways to help Ty develop this gift so he can not only control anxiety but also develop his ability/gift of discernment. I may be wrong but the two gifts seem to go hand in hand. When Tyler is in a leadership type of situation, he takes control and things flow smoothly for him. When he is not in control (school, church, bedtime) his mind races to fix the perceived problem. (the problem being that he is not the mom) I have been worried about his anxiety getting in the way of him enjoying life, but what I'm finding is as he gets older and has more control I think things will smooth out. I think of it as harnessing his powers for good. He is about to be baptized. I have never felt in such a hurry to have one of my children receive the gift of the Holy Ghost. It's a reminder to me that we need the gift and power of the Holy Ghost every day. It's a great comfort to me knowing that I am given this gift, based on my worthiness, and can access any gift of the Spirit that I need in any given situation. As a baptized and confirmed member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints we are all given this gift. It's up to us individually to receive the blessings our Father in Heaven has in store for us.
It's late, I may not be making any sense....I may even delete this post after I re read it tomorrow. All I know it that right in this moment I am feeling the influence of the Comforter and I hope you who may read this feel it too.
My Katelyn is preparing to receive her Patriarchal Blessing. I am so excited for her. I am also excited for me because when my son received his blessing it was one of my mothering highlights.
I wanted to post a summer recap but as I sat down and typed, this is what came out. Our summer was just normal fun summer stuff. But, the best thing was the spiritual growth I saw in my children. I am a grateful mom. I am sad to see summer end, but at the same time I look forward to the fun things our family has coming up from now until Christmas.
The kids are back to school, and loving it! Jason starts preschool next week. It's a weird/nice thing to wind up the baby portion of my life. (sigh) I look forward to the years ahead of me and am excited to see how things roll.
I should label this "random, long post" :)
